Coolnes, Park

this has to be one of the coolest pics ever. i now give it you all.

Nothing, Not Anything. At All.

no story for a little while longer. i got a bigger fish to fry currently. So I thought I'd do some self-referential shit-site wise anyway.
first of all anyone of you who knows me, i'm sure knows shaun, or miss bunny (whom i've never met) and enjoy their little sites as much as i. for those of you that don't you should check 'em out. shaun, i guess you could say, maintains my site as computers are one of the many things i'm inept at. he asked me recently if he could post something on my page. i said, sure. i didn't know he was going to paste his mug on it. so now i guess i'm sponsored. furthermore it is a mystery to me why he ripped off my friendster profile to add "surly and prone to fits of wrastlin'" but much about that man remains a mystery to me.
b-reezy is also very much worth a look. her name is actually breezy, and i'll not waste words on an obviously unique name. but you all feel free to hit her up for the 411. her log is far less fancy than shaun's or bunny's, and much less winded than mine. but there is an experience there that isn't so much a mass-media one. some entries i can't read past the first couple of lines because they can be so personal. and i think this only because i barely know her. if i didn't know her at all, or perhaps if i new her better it would be more comfortable to read. i feel it would make me presumptuous on our next encounter. feels like cheating. so i pass over those, sadly, knowing i'm missing out on something. but not you, people. read it all. i'd go on and on about breezy's, bunny's, or shaun's site, but if you don't already know, maybe you don't need to know.

what follows is an email i recieved concerning my writings on this site from a romanian friend of mine all the way from romania. funny how that works. i think its adorable that she writes english the same way she speaks it.

"i checked out your site and i couldn't understand
something:are you in love with emily or not(maybe you
don't know either...)anyway i understood she was
special for you;am i wrong?
you know something?i like indians and i always know
you aren't 100% american;do you remember when i asked
you,but you didn't tell me then.you see,i finally
found out!
i think you're a smart,nice guy who deserves a
family(beautiful and understanding wife,cute
kids...).a guy like you can't stay a whole life by
himself. this can't be hapiness.maybe it's time to
change your attitude and... your life.think about and
be more optimistic!
take care
never ever hit a woman again!"
--(signed the girl from romania)
first of all i find it nice that indians have fans overseas. the rest of that paragraph with the not 100% american and all, i'm not sure about. it is possible she was drunk on red wine and talking jibberish, but her english is too good. no matter. i stand by it and confirm the accusation in good faith. i am not 100% american, and i'm glad it's out.
furthermore i appreciate being called smart and nice; too many people in my life have deprived me of my appropriate titles. but i didn't fail to notice that no where in there is it said that i'm attractive. that's fine. i can make my peace with that. but what i can't stomach is knowing i will have to continue staying my life solely with my personality. and other than some minor senior superlative award we know that personality isn't going to get one shit in life. but maybe i need to change my attitude and be more optimistic. this isn't hapiness. where is my beautiful wife, and my cute kids? who has them? and what in god's name does he think he's doing with them?
and the "never hit a woman again" is that good advice or the implications of a threat; a line drawn in the sand?

i leave it you, my readers, to ponder these things.

jody